These Days

just like these days become my down days yeahhh. hahaha. smile, speak but actually I can assume I was faking it. why? there're answers I just can't tell you all. but who wants to know? nobody. LOL. 

I've just read a blog on tumblr that say with blog, she can speak what she can't. I totally agree with it!! I'm just the same person, can't speak very openly, just keep it in my mind, think it and just try to solve it myself. I think that've walked well for a long time.

I keep this problem I think. think, think, make calculation which drives me CRAZY. I want to walk away but I can't turn my back off from this. cry? not solve the problem. I just want to keep it secretly. hope God shows me His way. I believe it. I have some quotes that I find in the internet. One of it just like my friend told me.

you know, when I read this, I think "it's bullshit" hahaaha. honestly that's what I think first time. people keep telling this, me too, but just do they believe it too? I think, I don't really believe it with my condition right now but yeah this quote makes me believe slowly "everything is gonna be alright" I just need to believe it, try hard, pray. God will make it be okay.